Life, and Other Absurdities.

I love journaling. I feel like I've come so far internally from "I freaking love Madrid." Earlier I felt so faded, like there were no thoughts in my brain, I couldn't remember what it was like to walk around and be so lost in intense thought. Now I feel- I don't know- alive again. Albeit exhausted. This constant heat and constant traveling has worn me out. I'll definitely remember this as an intense transition- I can't wait until the heat wave is over. It has definitely made me re-evaluate how much I love the heat... 70's, 80's, and low 90's are one thing, but 97? Augh! Every day is just so much to handle- slash, maybe I should sometimes sit in the shade. I also haven't eaten for a while- I was going to get an ice cream but then I realized- and this sounds so cheesy- but I realized that I don't need any extra stimulation right now. And I wish I could always feel like that.